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I'm 25 years old female physically but internally i'm a guy whom love a gal. Yes I'm lesbian and in love with my girlfriend for past 7 years! We are truly in love and never change partner.
We are really under some kind of stress because can't meet or talk in public. My family really againt this relationship since early and I'm pretending like nothing between us anymore since 3 years ago. My girldfiend's family like me very much but they do not know anything abt us!
Nowadays we quite often sad or angry to each other because can't fulfill each others wish or expectation! This is because our family n society which againts us. But anyhow we will back to normal very fast and alwayz aim to live together as a family!
Recently we decide to come to our family in year 2005 honestly and face the problems together.We plan to collect more educational information abt gay and some expert's view to show them one day. and in 3 years more our love will be 10 years. With a thinking this will reflect as true long -term love to our family.
For all this I already in pressure and not happy.
And now my new probe is while my girlfriend n me talking in phone('sad') she told me something that really kill me. Her father is getting old not feeling well. She love her parents very much as I do. He force her to get marry n she is denied it like me too. This time she is very sad thinking abt her father n tell me while crying if in future (after we come out n separate from family) her father died because dissapointed of us she will never continue this relationship anymore! I knew she say it in pain but how could she say that! I just shut my mouth and act like normal because I knew my anger will make her feel worse. I just can't believe this that my lover could say that! For ur info my fly is more love, care and also strict than her family.I been beaten while im and scold very badly because our relationship earliar on. But I never give up. My mum is everything for me n love her more than ever but I never think of leave my this true love because them! I willing to live single for my life longer if my fly dun agree or againts badlly but i will never think of cheat my lover!
I rather will die than that n all this while I thought she will be the same. Normally she will be more childish with me and demand more love than I do. And now I feel so down n really feel like suicide. I knew my fly will againts more than her fly n still I willing to face it. but now my grilfriend's words really make me hate everything! I hate thhis love. But I can't just throw it. I love her n i knew she love me but how could she!!!!!!!! Shall I just die rather than face all this stupid problem? Any solution.... I dun think so!
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by Sandra L. Caron: ()
Our records show that you already previously have asked one of our experts a similar question. Please see http://www.sexualhealth.com/questions/read.cfm?ID=1853
Unfortunately, we have no further suggestions for you at this time.
Good luck and best wishes,
Annette Owens, Chief Medical Officer of The Sexual Health Network.Reviewed by: Patricia Fawver Ph.D. in Sexology
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